Story Behind the 3 Posted Poems (Part 2)

To start where I left off on last time… Standing up against the bullies only made my life worse. I was called into meeting after meeting and forced to continually re-explain all I had been experiencing. In every meeting there was any where between 2-6 people against me in the room and no one for. Of course, with each “meeting,” I was criticized and belittled as if I was a paranoid psycho. I would have doubted my sanity if I had not been keeping careful documentation that I was able to go back and read to prove a pattern.
I did not want to be so brave and wanted out many times. Every time I would try to refuse to be forced into one of these sessions, I was told I was not allowed to chose, and I had to participate and be cross-examined over and over. However, I found myself growing bolder and bolder and was able to speak out against the immoral and unethical behaviors I saw from many of those in authority. My interrogator from city hall (whom I was also forced to talk with), promised she would change things and claimed to be appalled by all I had told. However, when it came down to it, in my last hearing the day before I got another job and was finally able to quit, she lied about all I had said and claimed to have no knowledge of all I had confided to her.
Sounds like an intriguing book or movie, but it was a hellish life. It’s pretty stupid to tick of the police in the city you live in. But I had to. I had to take a stand for my Christianity and against the unethical behavior of so many that make the rules.
Now if you read the poems again, they’ll make more sense.
It was an extremely tough 8 months, and I am grateful it is now 6 months behind me. I don’t know why God wanted me to go through it all. I often felt imprisoned inside the police department as I begged for God to set me free. I felt very isolated and alone. I am still healing from my bitterness. Understand though, I hold no ill will against the police; I still see them as heroes, and I still love (and even miss) law enforcement. However on a personal basis (other than one of my friends who is a detective), I would prefer to keep as far a distance as possible.