H,H, & S and Waiting

Heartbreak, Hope, & Salvation (a word poem) 1993 (age 21)
Joyfulness no longer exists for me,
Unlike when I was so much younger;
Loving others never comes easy,
I find it hard to trust;
Even those I’ve known all my life

Believing in a brighter future;
Even with a cynical spirit,
Those dreams lie in the corners of my mind,
Haunting me everyday

Zealous for God
Under every horrible circumstance:
Christ is my best friend;
Keeping my faith is never easy,
Sometimes I fail to believe;
Christ still stands by my side,
Holding my hand even when I pull away;
Weathering every storm with God,
Even when I want to do it alone,
Realizing I cannot hope without God;
Despite the sadness in my soul,
The Lord makes me happy in my spirit

Waiting 1993 (age 21)
I’ve heard it said before
That only the wicked are downcast,
Only they are restless with life;
But I,
With Christ by my side,
Even I am impatient

I long for a better future
Expecting to again love life;
Though nothing ever changes,
Yet I still wait,
Praying for a miracle,
But I wait with an open heart

A prophecy was spoken one night
Telling me of God’s love,
It said He was planning my future;
And as I cried,
With bitter tears turned to pearls,
I cried with hope and peace

God’s love is teaching me everyday
To trust whatever He has planned;
There is freedom in God’s words,
And I love Him,
Knowing His promises are true,
I love Him with all my heart