On Being Single

I used to pride myself in being ridiculously content at still being single in my 30’s. And it used to honestly not bother me. Yet since I turned 34 last month, I seem to be stuck in the doldrums of singleness. I don’t really know why. I have not depended on the company of others even when I was a baby. I have always been quite capable of being alone. Due to a house full of dogs & cats, I have rarely felt lonely.
So why do I suddenly find myself constantly looking green-eyed at all those around me who have a special someone in his/her life? My dreams of a husband and children (asleep and awake) seem to have quadrupled. When I wake up, I feel extra empty and sometimes even miss the family that seemed so real only seconds ago. I even bought a bride magazine the other day. I have no idea why as I have never done so before.
Is my so-called biological clock getting closer to running down so it’s going crazy? Am I just jealous b/c my sister is thinking she’ll have another baby by next fall (Not that I’m not ecstatic for her; I hope she does have a new baby soon!)? Or is God trying to wake me up to the woman he intended me to be? I don’t know. And even if I did, I have no idea how to obtain so much as a date. Don’t get me wrong, this is not some psychotic attempt to have a stranger proposition me through my blog; I am merely ranting and letting any others feeling this way, to not feel so alone.
So all in all, the only thing in my power to do is all I can ever do: trust in God and in Psalm 37:4, Delight yourself in the Lord, and he will give you the desires of your heart. Of course I do not want to please God just to manipulate Him into giving me the family I so desire. I want my thirst for God to be genuine (and I believe it is), so that if He chooses to bless me, it is merely an extra bonus to my walk w/ Him.