I'm Having Issues

I’m having faith issues today. Just 24 days ago I was rejoicing that my cat Cosette was finally on the mend. Yet my heart dropped to my toes 2 days ago when I heard her howls of agony right before she threw up. Especially since she also began running away from food again as if I had set down a plate of poison in front of her. She is definitely sick again. I’m skipping lunch & leaving work early today to go to another vet appointment. Why couldn’t she get sick when I still made over $4 an hour more than I do now? Or why did I have to get this job that pays so little where I can’t afford to take care of my family & still pay my bills. It stinks! I am fighting not being angry with God. I guess I’m more frustrated than angry, but I am also confused. Did God really even heal her the first time? If so, then why let her get sick again?
Being a Christian makes life easier b/c it gives me hope of a bright eternity, but what about today? What about my sweet Cosette? Don’t get me wrong, I will never give up my faith or love of God just b/c life bites. I’m just being a whiny spoiled brat! I want what I want, and I want it now! If I do lose Cosette (or my house b/c I spent my mortgage payment on my cat), then I can still praise God for His love of me despite my insanity. Anyway, enough rambling for today!