In His Perfect Will

Well, it is now the second week into 2007 and I am finally posting. Actually I wrote this last week, but the Internet was down so I couldn’t post until today.
New Year’s resolutions seem to be the thought on a lot of people’s minds lately. I used to make them until I realized that I was making the same ones every year with little improvement. Read my bible more, read/write novels more, lose weight/exercise. The typical ones. It’s not that I don’t care about self improvement, but I can resolve to do these things every day of the year. I’ve heard that fitness clubs’ memberships drastically jump in January, but then drop almost as much again around March. Once people fail to meet their goals, they simply give up. I don’t want to be that person. If I fail, then it doesn’t mean I quit trying to succeed just b/c it’s past January or February.
The main things I want in life I seem to have little control of anyway. It all depends on what God wants for me and how many doors He is willing to open. I want to be married, but if he says no, then no matter how hard I “resolve” to be more courageous in going after a man I have a crush on, then I will never succeed. But that’s what I want anyway. No, not to fail, but to live only within God’s will. To be content w/ the life He has designed for me. However, as I posted on Dec. 6, I must also actively pursue my own happiness and not just passively sit by expecting God to hand me my life on a silver platter. As easy as it is for me to say, “If God truly wants me to be married then He’ll just drop the perfect man off on my doorstep,” I also know how unrealistic that is (at least for me). It can be tricky to find the right balance. This is why I need to remember to pray every day that I live and exist only in God’s perfect will for my life and that no one (including me) close or open any doors God does not wish to be open or closed.
So I will not make any new year’s resolutions, so to speak, just to be as open as possible to all God has planned for me. Only then will I find peace.