Cynic vs. Realist

My friend Sidney & I often disagree on the whether I am a cynic or a realist. For instance, when I say that the man I have a crush on will never ask me out, Sid says I am being a cynic, but I say I am being a realist. Statistically speaking, the majority of the men I have been interested in have not returned my feelings, so therefore, why would this guy be any different? So, you see, I am not being a cynic, but a realist!
As a Christian, am I being a realist or a cynic when I lack faith? For example my financial situation really bites right now. So if I look back at the pattern my life has taken and see that my finances have rarely been where they need to be, am I being logical by not trusting God? Yes, but I am also being a cynic by lacking the faith to believe in God’s provisions. I believe by seeing things as they usually tend to be is why I have such a hard time simply believing God will do things that seem impossible.
I am so logic-minded that two different instructors teaching 2 separate classes for the police department both told me that I have a very logical mind and they were both impressed by my line of thinking in the questions I asked them throughout the classes. Also, when I took an IQ test, the editorial portion of my results stated that I had high logical skills (which I think is the only reason my score was what it was, b/c I was able to figure out what I didn’t know). I list these examples not to brag, but to prove my point.
My logic makes it hard to accept God as not caring about the way things should happen, and that He is the God of the impossible. So maybe I should re-title this: “Faith vs. Logic.” It is my realism that keeps me grounded and keeps me from getting disappointed w/ life when things don’t go my way. But when that realism turns to doubt b/c I call it logic and refuse to see what God can do, then I become the cynic. Confused yet? Me, I think I’m finally seeing clearer now! As I write this, I’m having an epiphany on why I doubt God so much.
So how do I conclude this very open-ended subject? I guess just to remind myself to quit trying to limit God and remember that He doesn’t exist on my logical plane. He is so far above me that I can not come close to fathoming how His thought process works. And try to recondition myself to start actually walking by faith and not by sight/logic!