Anyone feel like voting again??

I added all 4 of my dogs to a second category on the on-line dog show for the sake of doubling their chances to win.

Anyone feel like voting again?? **Note: I found a much quicker way to vote, just type in the dog's name in the search field & his/her photo will pop up. Then vote for both photos there.**

Kailee: http://contest.dogshowusa.com/gallery.jsp?cat=8

Jonah: http://contest.dogshowusa.com/portal/gallery?cat=7


Frodo: http://contest.dogshowusa.com/portal/gallery?cat=3

Brejae': http://contest.dogshowusa.com/gallery.jsp?cat=2

H,H, & S and Waiting

Heartbreak, Hope, & Salvation (a word poem) 1993 (age 21)
Joyfulness no longer exists for me,
Unlike when I was so much younger;
Loving others never comes easy,
I find it hard to trust;
Even those I’ve known all my life

Believing in a brighter future;
Even with a cynical spirit,
Those dreams lie in the corners of my mind,
Haunting me everyday

Zealous for God
Under every horrible circumstance:
Christ is my best friend;
Keeping my faith is never easy,
Sometimes I fail to believe;
Christ still stands by my side,
Holding my hand even when I pull away;
Weathering every storm with God,
Even when I want to do it alone,
Realizing I cannot hope without God;
Despite the sadness in my soul,
The Lord makes me happy in my spirit

Waiting 1993 (age 21)
I’ve heard it said before
That only the wicked are downcast,
Only they are restless with life;
But I,
With Christ by my side,
Even I am impatient

I long for a better future
Expecting to again love life;
Though nothing ever changes,
Yet I still wait,
Praying for a miracle,
But I wait with an open heart

A prophecy was spoken one night
Telling me of God’s love,
It said He was planning my future;
And as I cried,
With bitter tears turned to pearls,
I cried with hope and peace

God’s love is teaching me everyday
To trust whatever He has planned;
There is freedom in God’s words,
And I love Him,
Knowing His promises are true,
I love Him with all my heart

Poetry Intro Plus 2 Poems: The Precious Children & Be Still

I’ve written roughly 140 poems (maybe a little more) in the past 23 years. I have chosen some of my favorites to post over the next days (or weeks?). I have written way too many “love” poems. Although some are not too bad, I have decided only to post my “spiritual” poetry. I know I am not a very good poet. In fact, I usually refer to myself as a "sloppy poet" b/c I rarely rhyme nor do I follow any kind of specific rhythm. But here they are, nonetheless. Hopefully you will find encouragement if them.

The Precious Children 1990 (age 18)
I love to watch the children play,
They are so innocent and pure,
They believe in so many things,
To them this world is secure

I want the children to always feel peace,
I never want them to be afraid,
They should never have to see hate,
But only the love from which they were made

Dear, God, I wish You could always keep them safe,
Save them from sin’s cruelties,
Sent them guardian angels,
Let them come to You with their frightened pleas

I wish I alone could protect them all,
To save them from the world’s lies,
But for them there is still a hope
Because there is a God who hears their cries

Be Still 1991 (age 19)
Be still…
My heart pounds and I clench my fists,
I can feel my frustration surge again,
The tears sit quietly in the corners of my eyes

And know…
What waits for me?
Are my dreams to remain wishes?
Will I even know when reality comes?

That I…
I cannot even grasp at what is to be,
There are no visible signs leading me,
I do not know what the future holds

Am God!
The peace of His strength now surrounds me,
Life’s questions begin to fade,
What waits for me will come

“Be still & know that I am God; I will be exalted among the nations, I will be exalted in the earth.” – Psalm 46:10

My Aunt Paula's Web Site

Here is a link to my Aunt Paula & Uncle Gordie's tree farm. I used to love visiting their farm; it is a beautiful place! http://www.bellschristmastrees.com/

From “Julie’s Gems”: November 2003 (Last one)

The show “Extreme Makeover” makes me sad to see people so down on themselves based on looks alone (not the Home Edition version of the show). The fact is, society is way too image conscious and needs to learn to concentrate more on what’s on the inside and how we treat others instead of obsessing over diets and fashion. Not that there’s anything wrong with taking pride in your appearance and eating for the sake of a healthy heart. In fact, it’s good to see many of you looking so healthy, but when dieting becomes a fixation to look better than the next guy or girl, that’s when it’s dangerous. Or when you’ll only be happy w/ yourself when you drop a size or three.
If someone doesn’t like you based on your looks alone, then he or she is not a real friend, and you should not waste your time listening to their put downs. A true friend or lover should build you up, not tear you down.
Bottom line: learn to accept yourself, and embrace who you are inside and out. If you are truly miserable every time you look in the mirror, perhaps it is time to do a little soul searching and find out what’s really bugging you. Focus at least one thing to improve or enhance, and pretty soon your self image will start to strengthen. Of course, it doesn’t hurt to change your hair style or color, or buy a new outfit to make yourself feel attractive, but colors fade, and clothes go out of style. I can see beauty in each one of you inside and out; I just hope you can learn to see it in yourself and be proud of whom you are.

Another Poet in the Family

Check out my nephew, Jordan's poem: http://www.homeschoolblogger.com/NOSboy11/

My Dogs on the Web (Please Vote!)

I entered my 4 dogs in a photo contest. Submit your photos to dogshowusa.com. To view my dogs (and vote!) see: (Photos listed by dog’s name and city, State)
Kailee: http://contest.dogshowusa.com/portal/gallery?cat=2

Frodo: http://contest.dogshowusa.com/portal/gallery?cat=4

Brejae’: http://contest.dogshowusa.com/portal/gallery?cat=3

Jonah: http://contest.dogshowusa.com/portal/gallery?cat=9

If you click on their photo you’ll see my write up on them. Also, just click on the star next to "vote" to vote! Thanks!!

From “Julie’s Gems”: October 2003

What are you afraid of? Snakes and especially sharks give me the heebie geebies. I’m not talking about the things we’re unlikely to face like flesh-eating zombies. I’m referring to more tangible things such as fear of rejection, silence, war, fire, marriage, death, homelessness, loss of a loved one, disease, et cetera.
So how do you deal with your phobias? Do you face them head on as a knight in shining armor? Or do you find ways to escape like a fleeing convict? I think we probably tend to do both. For instance, for someone like me who is very claustrophobic, I tend to avoid elevators and dark areas rather than face that suffocating feeling. Yet next month I will be facing another fear of mine by leaving my pets in the hands of other people. That may seem like a stupid fear to you, but for me it’s going to be a tough thing to face. It would be easy for me to simply remove myself from the situation and not take the out of state training being offered to me. But what would that accomplish? I would end up missing out on a great opportunity b/c I let fear bully me.
As you see, sometimes it is better to face your fears head on as a charging ram (Sick of my comparative phrases yet?); it can lead to a wonderful experience. But use common sense, of course. Don’t go deep sea diving with a bunch of ticked off sharks just to get over your fear of Jaws (Yikes!).
I know you officers must face fear weekly, if not daily, and I admire each of you for facing that fear with unabashed bravery to keep our city safe. So, I’m sure you know what I’m talking about. Then again, there’s nothing wrong with being afraid. It does not make you more or less of a person, so don’t let anyone tell you otherwise. In fact, fear can be a healthy thing if it allows you to come home safely every night.
As for me, I don’t plan on climbing into a tight, dark place anytime soon just to get over my claustrophobia, but I do still plan on going to Utah in November despite the anxiety in my heart. So if the boogie man visits you this Halloween, stay calm and tell him to go away; for even if fear dwells here, it will not rein here.
“Courage is the power to let go of the familiar.” – Raymond Lindquist

The Stockings Are Not Quite Yet Hung, But...

I know I’m posting a lot today, but I had a 4-day break, so I need to make it up! I usually decorate my house for Christmas the day after Thanksgiving b/c it is a long weekend and logically a good time to find the time to do so. I’m not putting up a tree this year b/c I’m sure my 2 younger dogs would knock it over and eat the ornaments and probably eat the tree as well! And I haven’t put up my stockings yet, but each dog & cat has their own stocking as seen in the photos (I cross-stiched thier names on the top of the stocking). Also in the photos are examples of the ornaments I made for all my animals. I painted cats to look like the cats & dogs to look like the dogs w/ name beads spelling out their names. The dog is Jaydee (she was camera shy, & almost always laid her ears back when I took her photo) & the cat is Amara. Jaydee died July 2005 & Amara disappeared April 2006.

Another Cosette Update

Cosette is still VERY ill. I have no idea how she is still alive. She cannot keep anyhting down and cannot walk very far w/o collapsing. God is remaining silent on healing Cosie and/or letting her be at peace and letting her die. But I fear it won't be long before I'm writing my tribute to her. (That's an old photo; I certainally will not take a photo of her now as she is a walking fur-covered skelton, and I want to remember her as she was, not as she is now.)

“Save the cheerleader, save the world.”

Anyone watching the new show “Heroes”? Anyone not watching it? I really liked last week’s episode b/c the first half of the show’s tagline finally come to fruition. The cheerleader was saved! Now she just needs to save the world! I also liked it so much b/c Peter became the ultimate hero. He knew he stood a chance to die, but he took the risk of traveling to Claire so he could save her life. He saw his own death in a futuristic painting, but he still knew he had to take the chance to save the cheerleader. He didn’t know how, but he knew he had to do it anyway. How many of us would risk our own life to save another?
There’s a really obvious parallel here. Jesus did that for us. He knew he would not only die, but would suffer what was possibly the most violent death any human has ever experienced (it was even worse than what was portrayed in the movie “The Passion of the Christ”). Yet He did it willingly. And His story is not some comic book fantasy, but it actually happened, and He truly has saved the world!

From “Julie’s Gems”: September 2003

As you may or may not know, my favorite movies (and books) are “The Lord of the Rings” parts 1 and 2 (I won’t read part 3 until the movie comes out). There is so much about them that is perfect. Tolkien’s imagination and skill are beyond what I could ever hope to possess, and I marvel each time I re-familiarize myself with the story. There are many themes woven through the rich tale, but I want to focus on the story of the hobbits. The main hobbit you will get to know is Frodo Baggins. He is the one who bears the responsibility of the fate of the world through the possession of a little ring full of enough power to destroy the world. Although it is Frodo’s intention to set off on his journey to destroy the ring alone, he is quickly joined by three other hobbits Sam, Merry, and Pippin, whose loyalty and brave hearts shine through. Eventually the 4 hobbits are joined by 5 others to carry out the quest to destroy the ring, and thus creates the title of part one, “The Fellowship of the Ring.”
Those of you familiar w/ the story know that the fellowship falls apart at the end of part one, and the nine companions split into 3 separate adventures. Frodo is now paired with Sam alone (not counting the antagonist, Gollum). This is where I’m finally coming to the reason behind my column. You see, in part 2, Frodo is struggling w/ the burden of the ring as it wrecks havoc on his heart, mind, and soul. Frodo would surely have gone crazy if not for Sam. Sam always manages to pull Frodo back to reality. He is the true anchor to Frodo’s sanity. In my opinion, Sam is the real hero of the story. He shines as the hero not just by being brave, but by his act of friendship, loyalty, and encouragement.
Hopefully you have a friend like Sam, and even more hopefully, you are that type of friend. It’s not too likely any of us will be asked to take a treacherous trek to drop a dangerous ring into the fires of Mordor, but we can still prove our friendship by simply being there. It may not seem like much, but trust me, it is.

From “Julie’s Gems”: August 2003

So here’s a big question… Which is worse: getting what you really want and losing it, or never getting what you want? Seriously think about it for at least a second. Done? Okay, now here’s my take on things. Say, for example, that you always wanted to run your own bed & breakfast. You finally find the perfect location, and you are in business! A year or so later, the business is still floundering. In fact, running the B & B has put such a strain on your finances that you end up declaring bankruptcy. You had your dreams in your hands, but it slipped through your fingers and broke your heart.
Now let’s say there’s someone you’ve had feelings for several years. Before you get the chance to really know him or her and work up the nerve to make your move, he or she has taken another job in another state. You never had the opportunity to find out if you stood a chance with him or her. So which scenario was worse?
The first one is awfully depressing, isn’t it? But at least you got to live out your dream, even if for a brief while. Sure your great plan took a belly flop, but wasn’t it fun while it lasted? At least you saw the vision come to life and created great memories.
Now on to story number two. Is it better to have loved and lost or to never have loved at all? Who knows, but at least he or she never shattered the perfect illusion you had in your head of what may have been. You may be heart broken, but it’s the fantasy you lost, and not the reality.
Yes, I am now finally coming to a conclusion. I take that back, I’ll let you come to your own conclusion. Just consider this: even if your dreams don’t turn out like the ones swimming in your head, at least you had the opportunity to know what could have been. Enjoy the moment while you’re living it. And if you don’t get what you want in life, perhaps you should be thankful and savor the image in your mind, and maybe even learn from it, so the next time a new he or she comes into your life, you’ll know exactly what to do!

Thankful for God’s Blessings

Things I am Thankful For (In no particular order):
Jesus Christ, God, the Holy Spirit & for choosing me (my faith); Mom, Frank, Dad, Vickey, Christina, Russ, Kaitlyn, Jordan, Ian, Noah, Hannah (family); Kailee, Frodo, Brejae’, Jonah, Cosette, Oliver, Caspian, Quentin, Dimitri, Belicia, MuLan (animals) and those I have recently lost as well: Gidget, Bart, Jaydee, & Amara; Cheryl & Sidney (friends); my house, car, job, heat, electricity, running water, food, clothes (the necessities of life); my imagination; health (minus the headaches & arthritis and stomach issues, but it’s bearable); my love of / gift with animals; the ability to read & write; JRR Tolkien & CS Lewis and all other writers who have inspired me; that I finally finished my latest novel (can’t wait until I have more time to work on part 2); ice cream; rain (especially the smell of a wet sidewalk after the rain) & rainbows; "Star Trek"; weather between 40-75 degrees; horses; “Lost”, “24,” “The Nine,” “Smallville,” & “Heroes” (imaginative TV Shows); Snoopy; animated movies; peppermint bark; "Lord of the Rings," "Batman Begins," "The Princess Bride," "Never Ending Story," and all other good fantasy/sci-fi movies; bluebells & tiger lillies; weeping willows; Philly cheese steak sandwiches & meatball subs; cooking/baking; cheesecake; cross stitching; TobyMac, Jeremy Camp, Third Day, Todd Agnew, David Crowder Band, Hyper Static Union, Day of Fire (good Christian music); anywhere in the state of Maine (although I have only been a few places); a really good book by Tolkien, Lewis, Stephen Lawhead, John Grisham, Michael Crichton, Frank Peretti, Patricia Cornwall, or any one else that allows me to get totally lost in great talent & fascinating story; honey BBQ wings w/ ranch dressing; Winchester, Idaho (and surrounding area), especially the “Wolf Education & Research Center” (beautiful area); that "Papa John's" Pizza is coming back to my city (my favorite pizza place); pretty much any body of water; sunrises & sunsets…
I could be creative and make this list a million miles long, including all of my favorite sights, smells, places, etc, but that would take too long.
Happy Thanksgiving! Remember to thank the source (God) of all you have in your life (even if you don’t have all you want)!

From “Julie’s Gems”: July 2003

I’ve covered a variety of emotions since I first started writing this column a year and a half ago; from love to bad habits, as well as pet peeves and loss. Thinking back, I realized I have forgotten a very important emotion: humor.
I remember a song I used to enjoy as a kid that went something like, “Everybody’s got a different funny bone. Everyone’s got their own sense of humor.” It basically was saying that we don’t all find the same things funny. For instance, I find sarcastic, dry wit and goofy or silly humor hysterical. But I don’t see the appeal of slap stick or gross out humor. If you can find something to make you laugh, then yeah for you! Just as long as it’s not at the expense of someone else or something that depletes brain cells, then giggle away!
Levity is especially important in times of trial. When my grandma was in the hospital with lung cancer, everyone marveled at her sense of humor. I doubt very much she found anything funny about her situation, but she found a way to smile and put others at ease. Laughter truly is the best medicine.
Ecclesiastes says there is a “time to weep and a time to laugh; a time to mourn and a time to dance.” So try to find time to laugh, even in times of heart break. You won’t change what has or will happen, but for a few moments, at least, you will have given your heart wings to fly away from the pain. Eventually you’ll have come back to earth to face real life, so cherish the grin on your face every time you find it there, and don’t feel guilty for allowing yourself to laugh. In the long run, it may save your sanity.

Another Poet in the Family

Check out my 14-year old niece’s poems. She is very talented. Like mother (Christina), like daughter (Kaitlyn), & grandmother (Carole), & great grandmother (Jewel)! http://www.homeschoolblogger.com/purpleprincess/241143/#c442795
Actually she has the same idea I had. As soon as I’m done w/my “Julie’s Gems" entries, I had planned on posting some more of my poetry.
All of my nieces & nephews are very smart & talented. I love them all to pieces & just wish I got to see them more often (they grow up so fast!). It’s partly b/c of my nieces & nephews that makes me want so much to have my own children. They are truly amazing children. Of course that’s b/c they have good parents!

From “Julie’s Gems”: June 2003

Do you drive yourself crazy with endless what ifs? What if I had finished college? What if I hadn’t given up on a certain romance? What if I hadn’t cut my hair? What if I had the guts to go for the things I really want in life? What if? What if? It’s hard not to torture our minds with choices we made or didn’t make, especially when the path we chose ends up being full of twists and turns we never expected. We find ourselves wondering how things could have gone. I’ll give you an example out of my life (Hey, I heard those heavy sighs!). I have had at least 1 dog and/or cat for as long as I can remember, and b/c of that fact, having a pet has often been the basis for a major decision. I chose to go to college locally b/c I did not want to leave my dog behind. My pets have also kept me grounded in not doing foolish things like spending an entire paycheck on my dream trip to Bar Harbor, Maine. So thus begins the what if process. What if I had no pets? Would I have moved to Washington for college? And then the what ifs really go crazy. If I had gone out of state, would I have met my soul mate, and by not going he’s still there and we’ll be apart forever? Et cetera.
It’s hard not to get caught up in all the scenarios that could have been, especially for someone like me who has such an active imagination. But the hard, cold truth is that there is no time machine that takes us back and lets us make a different decision. Even if there was, who says we wouldn’t do the same thing over and over anyway? Actually, if you’ve seen the move “The Time Machine,” (the book is different) the main character tries to go back in time to keep his girlfriend from dying, but does not succeed. Eventually he learns to accept the loss and moves on with his life, finding new people to care for.
I’m having a hard time concluding this column and have to keep erasing paragraphs as I feel I could write several pages on this topic. I know there is no magic solution to the crazy what ifs disease, so I also do not have an instant cure to prescribe. The truth is, sometimes it’s good to wonder about the might have beens. You can go back and right a wrong, or try again, careful not to repeat mistakes. I guess that would be the best advice I can give on this subject. As the serenity prayer says, learn to accept the things you cannot change. But don’t be afraid to make up for lost time and repair what you can if at all possible. Either that or become a mad, but brilliant scientist and build a time machine. If you do, I think I’ll stay here and deal with the present.

From “Julie’s Gems”: April 2003

Do you ever forget whom you are? You know, when some really attractive person of the opposite sex flashes you a beautiful smile and you forget your own name? Or how about when you’re with a group of friends and they’re talking about something you disagree with and you forget your own religion or other moral convictions (by keeping your mouth shut). I know this seems like a rewritten rerun of some of my other columns, but I felt a nagging voice telling me to write about being true to yourself. Perhaps just to preach to myself!
I’ll make this short and hopefully sweet. I’m not talking about cutting someone else down to make a point. Be respectful, but don’t be afraid to stand up for whom you proclaim to be. Even if no one else respects you or your opinions, you will ultimately feel great about yourself; I can guarantee that. Friends come and go, but your integrity should last your whole life.

From “Julie’s Gems”: March 2003

“It is difficult for the ungifted to express emotions that yearn for expression, yet the desire is so strong it cannot be completely denied, and so I write because I must.” – Jewel Jalanti
Beautiful words aren’t hey? My grandma wrote them. I find it strange that she would refer to herself as “ungifted.” She is such a talented poet that her prose has often brought tears to my eyes. “Ungifted?” She makes Shakespeare look like Dr. Seuss! Okay, maybe that was an exaggeration. Don’t we all feel that way though, like we have no gifts and we’re waiting for a lightning bolt of talent to strike?
My 2 favorite pastimes are writing and singing. I will most likely be doing both until the day I die. Am I any good at either? Maybe, but it doesn’t matter. I don’t care if my words will ever be as powerful as Tolkien, or my voice as pure as Charlotte Church. What matters to me is the joy these things bring to me. Not doing either would be like not breathing. Granted I don’t have any ambitions to try to be the next “American Idol,” but I would love to have a novel on the New York Times' Best Sellers’ List. That may never be in my destiny, but it does not mean I will stop writing. When I used to make this my only goal, my writing was not as natural. When I quit worrying what the critics might think, my writing began to flow w/ ease and became much more enjoyable.
My long, drawn out point is this: don’t worry about how talented you are when doing something you love; it takes the joy out of it. So what if you never hit a home run, bowled a perfect game, or paint as well as Rembrandt. Does it make you happy? Yeah? Then don’t listen to the silent critic nagging at you in the back of your mind. My grandma felt “ungifted,” but it never stopped her from writing, for as she put it, “I write because I must.” So don’t give up and don’t over-complicate what you enjoy. Gifted or not, follow your dreams, strive to improve, and most of all, have fun!

This is hysterical!

Now that I've posted all these negative links, you have to watch this one. It is very funny! (Watch the video!)

http://www.coughsafe.com/media.html

Audio Stories

I enjoy listening to books on CD/tape. I suppose this is b/c my mom used to read to me & my sister when we we kids & later my sister would read to me when we were older. We had a fun tradition of starting a book right before Christmas & staying up all night finishing it on Christmas Eve. I have often read my books for my dad and/or Grandma and am in the process of reading my latest novel on tape for my them now. Anyway, there is a web site that offers free short stories to listen to: http://librivox.org/short-story-collection-001/
I am currently listening to "The Golden Key" by George MacDonald (one of the great fantasy fiction writers). So far, it is a good story and displays his talent well.

From “Julie’s Gems”: February 2003

I’m sure you’ve all heard the song with the lyrics, “You’re nobody till somebody loves you.” I used to like that song, but my over-analytical mind started turning those words over in my head. I know that most of you out there have a significant other of some sort, and I don’t want to exclude you, for this column is not merely for the single. I don’t want any of us to get caught up in thinking our worth is based on how someone values or devalues us. Try to remember that no one can make you suddenly become somebody just by loving you. You are strong enough on your own accord, even if you don’t think so. You’d be amazed at what you can accomplish alone. Please don’t wait until heart breaking circumstances force you away from a loved one and you are left realizing you have no idea whom you are. Write a poem, or an essay, or better yet, start a journal (it doesn’t have to be daily) and jot down your thoughts and feelings that are yours alone. For you non-mushy types, you don’t even have to go this far, just spend a few minutes a day in self contemplation and mentally ask yourself the tough questions about what makes you tick. Don’t get me wrong, I don’t have anything against being head over heels in love, but just be careful not to lose who you are along the way. In fact, being really comfortable with whom you are as a person will make you a much better partner to someone else than if you’re waiting for him or her to mold you. Take the time and discover whom you truly are and realize that you are somebody whether anybody is in love with you or not!
P.S. On a personal note to my sisiter: I dreamt last night that you had twins. A boy w/ red hair named Seth (of course) & a girl w/ black hair named either Isabell or Isabella. And that they were born 3 weeks early. (It was actually a really long & strange dream that started w/ dad having a heart attack.)

This is Disturbing

Sorry to post another moribid link, but this is important news... http://www.dailymail.co.uk/pages/live/articles/news/news.html?in_article_id=416003&in_page_id=1770
My mom said one of her friends said that we are living at the end of the end of the end times. Sounds about right to me!

From “Julie’s Gems”: January 2003

Can you believe it’s 2003 already! In 365 days (give or take a few), we’ll look back and wonder how the time went so fast. Some of you will begin a new journey away from this police department. You’ll hope that the new person who takes your badge number will do it proud. A new face may take your old number, but never your place. Some will begin the life-long commitment of parenthood, perhaps for the first time. It will bring every emotion to a level you never knew existed in forms of fear, protectiveness, frustration, and love. Others may choose the adventure of buying and/or selling a new house. Hopefully it will be a move for the better as you turn the residence into a home. For some of you, life may be exactly where you were twelve months ago. Nothing drastic came or went, and life feels just as boring as ever. Perhaps those are the lucky ones. For they have suffered no loss, have not had to endure heartache, and a reasonable amount of tears have been shed. Of course, we have no way to predict what the next year may or not bring, and many changes may take you by such surprise that it knocks the breath right out of you. It is in those times your character in built. I believe in the saying, “That which does not kill you will make you stronger.” I don’t expect you to dwell on my column longer than the minutes it takes to read, but try to remember what you are made of during those too-painful-to-grasp times in your life. Dig deep inside your heart and soul and let yourself be made, not broken. No matter what life may or may not bring your way in the next 365 days (give or take a few), remember to count your blessings and strive to make 2003 a great year!

From “Julie’s Gems”: November 2002

I was having a conversation w/ a couple of women a few months ago, and one of them asked me if it was hard dealing with the fact that I would be 30 soon. I told them that several years ago I was having a tough time knowing I would be 3 decades old in a short amount of time, and yet I was no where I thought I would be at this age. But then I recognized that I had to make peace with where my life was and the direction it seemed to be taking. I did some serious soul searching and realized that I was meant to be at this particular place in my life whether it seemed stagnant to me or not. So that’s my topic this month, not just to bore you with a personal story. I am always encouraging you not to give up and to strive to live up to your full potential, so telling you to make peace with you life as it is, is not a euphemism for giving up. It is my way of reminding you all to be thankful for what you have. And of course, what better time to be reminded of such things than in November! It’s always important to follow your dreams, but sometimes they are not meant to be reality, and it’s during those times that we must make peace with our unfulfilled dreams, less we drive ourselves crazy. That doesn’t mean you should quit dreaming, but to learn to concentrate more on what you already have and less on what you don’t. I had a friend that was so obsessed with improving his life that he could never be satisfied with what he already had. It was rather sad that he could never find contentment. I feel like I’m not making sense and being oxymoronic, but I hope you can figure out what I’m trying to get across. Be happy with what you’ve been given, and don’t be consumed with what everyone else has that you don’t. Really stop and think about all you have and make November 28th a true day of giving thanks!

From “Julie’s Gems”: October 2002

Yes, I am one of those people who watches “Fear Factor.” Of course we all sit back at home and insist we could do that. It wouldn’t be a problem to purposely crash a car into a ring of fire. And we wouldn’t even squirm if we had to eat pig intestines. But to take the dreaded walk of shame – forget it! It would be far too embarrassing to fail. Why is that? We should be proud of ourselves for trying the difficult things. In other words, the walk of shame should not be shameful. Letting your defeat be the end of your efforts should be the embarrassing part.
When I watch the Olympic Games, I’m always amazed when the athletes consider themselves a failure for not getting a medal. I can understand the disappointment in not holding your dream in your hands, but you think they would be proud of themselves for making it so far. Yet for some of those competing, going back home without a medal is considered dishonorable. The focus becomes on the final destination instead of on the journey.
I know that being proud of yourself seems like you’re being conceited, but there is nothing wrong with patting yourself on the back for your achievements. Even if you don’t get first place, at least you make an effort and maybe even conquered some fears in the process. And if you do win, then that should merely be the icing on the cake, and not your main focus. So please, if you do not acquire the prize, don’t see yourself as a failure, but be pleased with how far you came. And don’t even think about giving up b/c you did not succeed the first, second, or third time. Keep up the good work, no matter what the critics says, and someday we may see tarantulas crawling on your face on “Fear Factor!”

Cheers to Conger

Rather than tell the story that happened at the vet yesterday, I 'll just put a copy of the letter I sent to my local newspaper (I don't know if it will be published or not). It doesn't mean that Cosette's not really sick (she might have hepatitis), but it does mean I have a kind vet. And thanks to God for the small bill.
Cheers to Conger Small Animal Hospital in Caldwell. They are the only vet in town that have taken in my animals on a moments notice when there was an emergency, and they have successfully treated several of my animals. I have always admired the way they will not run unnecessary tests, and wisely take the diagnostic process one step at a time. I have had a cat that has been very sick and has already cost me over $300. She was getting a lot better, but then relapsed. When I brought her back to Conger, I was dreading how much the trip would cost. However, when I was ready to check out, I was told that Dr. Olson was doing her best to find the cheapest price for me. After a while, she came out to talk to me and explained she felt it was better to treat my cat’s symptoms rather than change me the $100 it would have cost to process the blood work. Instead, she only charged me $5.13 for the medicated cat food my cat needed . I am still reeling from the compassion this vet had on my finances. She will still hold on to the cat’s blood in case she gets worse & the tests become necessary, but until then, I am very grateful that Dr. Olson considered my situation and was not just caring about the money.

I had to Post one More Today

I know 4 posts in one day is excessive, but I had to add this today as well. It was the answer I needed for my last post. I found it at: http://www.ivpress.com/questioningfaith/questions/031.php You say you sometimes feel guilty for questioning your faith. Without doubt there could be no real faith. Indeed, Christianity is a religion that speaks openly of the kind of doubts and questions you mention. Adam and Eve started us out with matters of doubt and unbelief. Sarah doubted God as did Job and the psalmist—repeatedly so. Jesus responded to his disciples' doubts, most notably Peter and Thomas. Paul offers more than hints of his own doubts, but he also speaks of the incredible sense of confidence that comes by exercising faith. The passage I most often quote is Philippines 3:10: "I want to know Christ and the power of his resurrection and the fellowship of sharing in his sufferings."Allow your doubts to strengthen your faith.More than a hundred years ago, F. W. Robertson wrote: "But there are hours, and they come to us all at some period of life or other, when the hand of Mystery seems to be heavy on the soul. . . . Well, in such moments you doubt all—whether Christianity be true; whether Christ was a man or God or a beautiful fable. You ask bitterly, like Pontius Pilate, 'What is Truth?' In such an hour what remains? I reply, Obedience. Leave those thoughts for the present. Act—be merciful and gentle—honest; force yourself to abound in little services; try to do good to others; be true to the duty that you know. That must be right, whatever else is uncertain, and by all the laws of the human heart, by the word of God, you shall not be left in doubt. Do that much of the will of God which is plain to you, and 'You shall know the doctrine, whether it be of God.'"I hope this is helpful.

I'm Having Issues

I’m having faith issues today. Just 24 days ago I was rejoicing that my cat Cosette was finally on the mend. Yet my heart dropped to my toes 2 days ago when I heard her howls of agony right before she threw up. Especially since she also began running away from food again as if I had set down a plate of poison in front of her. She is definitely sick again. I’m skipping lunch & leaving work early today to go to another vet appointment. Why couldn’t she get sick when I still made over $4 an hour more than I do now? Or why did I have to get this job that pays so little where I can’t afford to take care of my family & still pay my bills. It stinks! I am fighting not being angry with God. I guess I’m more frustrated than angry, but I am also confused. Did God really even heal her the first time? If so, then why let her get sick again?
Being a Christian makes life easier b/c it gives me hope of a bright eternity, but what about today? What about my sweet Cosette? Don’t get me wrong, I will never give up my faith or love of God just b/c life bites. I’m just being a whiny spoiled brat! I want what I want, and I want it now! If I do lose Cosette (or my house b/c I spent my mortgage payment on my cat), then I can still praise God for His love of me despite my insanity. Anyway, enough rambling for today!

From “Julie’s Gems”: September 2002

As we all know, September 11, 2001 was a day so real we could barely accept it happened. One of the connections for me was that the day was also my birthday. At first, it bothered me that September 11 was no longer my birthday, but now the date of the terrorist attacks. But then I thought of all those people who lost someone. September 11 will no longer be an un-circled date on their calendar; it will forever be the day they lost a husband, wife, mother, father, sister, brother, daughter, son, cousin, aunt, uncle, or friend. So no, September 11, 2002 was not just the day I turned the big 3-0, it was also the heart wrenching anniversary for many that lost a cherished loved one.
For the living victims of September 11, it can be an effort merely to breathe after such a loss. How dare the sun rise and children laugh and kittens romp after such a devastating blow! For days, weeks, and perhaps years, these victims will scarcely be able to roll out of bed. It’s for those people my heart aches. To refuse to let their heart and soul heal and seek peace. To not let themselves accept that weeping may endure for the night, but joy will eventually come in the morning. This September, be reminded that even when circumstances do not change and it feels as if life has let you down, let faith allow you to live each day with a song in your heart, even when there are tears in your eyes.

What The...?

As if the link I posted yesterday about the false Christ wasn't weird enough, life just gets stranger. The below articlw was taken from: http://www.answersingenesis.org/
Hybrid human-bovine embryos? The more a culture gets away from believing in God, and the more people believe humans are just animals, the more we will see news reports like this one: Plan to create human-cow embryos UK scientists have applied for permission to create embryos by fusing human DNA with cow eggs. Researchers from Newcastle University and Kings College, London, have asked the Human Fertilization and Embryology Authority for a three-year license. The hybrid human-bovine embryos would be used for stem cell research and would not be allowed to develop for more than a few days. But critics say it is unethical and potentially dangerous. Liberal Democrat MP Dr Evan Harris - a member of the Commons Science and Technology Select Committee - said: “If human benefit can be derived by perfecting therapeutic cloning techniques or from research into subsequently-derived stem cells, then it would actually be immoral to prevent it just because of a ‘yuck’ factor. You can read the entire article at: BBC News—Plan to create human-cow embryos

This is creepy!

I don't usually do so many posts in 1 day, but I had to add this one taken from my sister's blog. Please view this video either from her site http://www.homeschoolblogger.com/quietcajun/234384/#c429640 or mine. Anyway, here's the video link: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zmC6LBpBUv4
And I will also include Christina's quote on my blog: "For false Christs and false prophets will appear and perform signs and miracles to deceive the elect—if that were possible. So be on your guard; I have told you everything ahead of time." Mark 13:22 - 23

Another Update on Cosette

Since I've posted several pictures of her already, you should know that the tabby in the photo is Cosette. The calico w/ her is Belicia (Bella). I love that photo! Anyway, I'm worried that Cosette is getting sick again. I haven't seen her eat in 2 days and she started howling like she was in pain last night right before she threw up. So if anyone reads this, again, please pray that God will completelty heal Cosette. Thank you!
On another note: it;'s funny that the column I posted from my old "Julie's Gem's" (written in 2002) yesterday was about Cosette & Amara, since now Cosie has been the one so sick & I lost Amara in April this year. It made that column ring even more true to me since I miss Amara a lot & I've been so worried about losing Cosette!

From “Julie’s Gems”: August 2002

As I was channel surfing the other day, I saw a report about car accidents. I don’t remember which station this was on, but the report was basically saying that the reason for so many car accidents is the lack of respect for others. People don’t care if their reckless behavior could take the life of another. All they care about is that they’re in a hurry. It’s not just driving rudeness that is prevalent in our society, but the way people treat each other in general. We treat people like they’re stupid for asking a question that seems obvious to us. We insult or make fun of others for doing something we may seem as stupid. Instead of making fun of people and treating them like an idiot, why don’t we offer to help the person in need? I’m not just preaching to the choir, here, I’m just as guilty as anyone of getting impatient with others when their actions seem illogical. I would have to say this is my self improvement plan for the year. To try and put myself in others’ shoes and remember what it felt like to be in the dark or how frustrating it feels when still a novice. So my desire here would be to try and treat others as I would like to and expect to be treated. I challenge you all to strive for this same goal. To try and not cut others off in traffic; not just because it’s impolite, but b/c it could take a life. And to think first before we speak and assess if what we are about to say may be something condescending or rude. In other words, do unto others as you would have them do unto do. ‘Nough said!

From “Julie’s Gems”: July 2002

Can you believe I’ve written six columns prior to this one and have yet to write a story about my pets? Well your luck just ran out! Fear not, this column is actually about learning to appreciate what you have before you lose it. Now brace yourselves, here comes the story… Twice in the last three months I have been faced with the possibility of losing one of my cats. First, my cat, Cosette was stolen by my neighbor (or should I say “allegedly” stolen), and she was missing for 43 hours before I realized where she was. Then last month my kitten Amara suffered from an unknown injury that caused her brain to swell and she had to spend 57 hours at the vet. During the time when both were gone, the simplicity of not having their furry little face around made me realize even more how much they meant to me. I know many of you cannot relate to loving a cat as dear as a family member. So think of what it would be like to not know where your child was for 43 hours. Every memory you have is a painful, yet cherished one. Or now imagine your sister has been injured and in the hospital and you have no idea if she will live through it. The worse time to re-live the memories of your loved ones is either after you have just lost them or when you are threatened with losing them. Take the time to be with those you love and create new stories that you will someday tell your grandchildren. But also take the time to re-live the current memories you have. Start a journal, photo album, scrapbook, write letters to each other, or anything else you can think of to show how much you care. I know I’m being unusually sentimental, but I do believe it is essential to cherish what we have before it is too late. Life is too short & too fragile to take each other for granted. So go home and tell your significant other, spouse, child, parent, sibling, dog, cat, or other important person in your life how much they mean to you.

From “Julie’s Gems”: June 2002

What makes you happy? It seems like a simple question, doesn’t it? For me it’s being surrounded by my dogs and cats, spending time with family, reading or writing a good novel, eating Chubby Hubby ice cream, singing, and watching the Lakers win the championship 3 years in a row (Woo-hoo, go Lakers!). For some it’s being surrounded by their children, or sitting quietly and enjoying a sunset. So what’s not simple about my question? Peer pressure. For example, I know a lot of people make fun of me for having so many pets and make comments about the pet hair on my clothes or that my house must smell with all those animals. Or, as with my sister who has 5 children, she often receives rude comments such as, “Don’t you know where babies come from?” I really do have some sort of point. Don’t let other people’s petty comments rob you of what makes you happy. If they don’t understand it, it doesn’t mean you should abandon your happiness. Don’t get me wrong, I’m not saying this gives pedophiles, abusers, or drug addicts free license to do whatever they want just b/c it makes them feel better. But don’t refuse to watch cartoons when you’re over 20 if they still make you laugh. I know I’ve been tempted not to get that one extra kitten just b/c other people won’t understand, but when I really think about it, I know the little bundle of joy takes away the blues and brings in the sunshine. Okay, that was really corny! But you get what I’m saying, right? I’ll break it down: life is very short, so don’t let the negative comments of others keep you from playing in mud puddles. Live life. Love life. Enjoy life.

From “Julie’s Gems”: May 2002 (one more post before I go home for the weekend)

Why do nice guys finish last? For those of us in law enforcement striving to be the good guys, it is often frustrating that the bad guys get all the fame and glory. The year “Star Wars Episode I: The Phantom Menace” came out, more kids dressed like Darth Maul than Jar Jar Binks for Halloween. Not that kids didn’t like the goofy humanoid-bunny-mule-thing, but they were more fascinated with the dark and creepy evil guy. Perhaps it is the power, money, and women most of the bad guys are dripping with. It doesn’t matter that they get defeated in the end because they are back again in the next movie playing another all-powerful villain. We can hope that children grow up and learn that even with all the bad guys may possess, their lives are in constant turmoil. But then why is it that as adults we are still attracted to the bad seed. It doesn’t matter that Mike Tyson battered his ex-wife, raped at least one woman, bit the ear of Evader Holyfield, and beat people with chairs (et cetera), the public is still paying as much as $10,000 a ticket to watch him fight. (Don’t even get me started on the popularity of Woody Allen, Robert Downey Jr., or Sean “P. Diddy” Combs!) Maybe I’m naïve, but I just don’t get it! Wow, did I ever get stuck on a tangent there! I don’t even have a cheesy point this time. I just wanted to encourage you all to be the good guy no matter how much attention the bad guy gets. Fame and glory are not as important as self-respect and being able to sleep knowing that, at least for today, you have no regrets.

An Excellent Article

http://nehemiah.gospelcom.net/desires4.htm

This is an article very much worth reading!

From “Julie’s Gems”: April 2002

I tend to think of strange things as I lie awake in the middle of the night. This month’s column is based on one of the ideas that came to me during such a time, so bear with me! One of my favorite shows is “Jeopardy.” If you stop and think about it, life is a lot like “Jeopardy.” You win or lose based on your knowledge, and there’s always someone out there that seems to know all the answers. You can be at the bottom of the heap and feel like you are going to lose it all, but then comes the Final Jeopardy round. You figure, what the heck, you may not know much about Russian literature, but you’re going to take a leap of faith and risk all the money you have. To your great surprise, you remember that Fyodor Dostoevsky wrote The Brothers Karamazov. Your opponents that were ahead of you do not remember this fact, and end up losing everything. You are the new “Jeopardy” champion! Hopefully you can see the picture I’m trying to paint here. Even when you think you’re about to lose, you take one last risk, and suddenly you’ve achieved more than you ever dreamed. So even when you feel you are at the bottom of your barrel, don’t give up. You may not win money on a game show, but you will win the sense of self satisfaction; not that you beat someone else, but that you took a flying leap of faith and landed on your feet.

Check These Out

http://www.thinkchristian.net/?p=960
Funny, but I would like the “Christ Follower” to be a little less arrogant & a little more loving. We can witness to people w/o having a self righteous attitude about it. What’s the old saying, “You catch more flies w/ honey than w/ vinegar?”

From “Julie’s Gems”: March 2002

Three months ago a fantastic movie titled “The Lord of the Rings: the Fellowship of the Ring,” came to theaters. I enjoyed this movie so much that I saw it three times (so far), and I’m currently reading the books. The whole movie was incredible with great acting, breath-taking scenery and heart-pounding action. I loved all the dialogue from the movie, yet I will focus on only one phrase. It is when the elf Galadriel says, “Even the smallest person can change the course of the future,” to Frodo, a diminutive Hobbit. It is a simple phrase, and I’m sure we’ve all heard variations of the same idea. I especially took this message to heart since I am shorter than average. Yet my column is not only for the vertically challenged, but for anyone who feels they do not measure up to the tall and lovely elves of this world. No matter what limitations we feel we may have, be it age, weight, height, athletic ability, looks, intelligence, and the like, we should not let these things stop us from striving to be the best we can be. We are our own worst critic, and our abilities are typically greater than we give ourselves credit for. I guess I’m taking the long way around to simply say, if you think you can accomplish it, then don’t let your doubts or the doubts of others keep you from your goals and dreams. Go for it, and who knows what great things you will achieve!

Look like anyone famous?

This is fun. Upload a photo of yourself to see if you resemble any one famous. (Of course I’d rather be plain ol’ me than anyone else, except for the salary!) You have to register (it’s free), but just ignore the ad that pops up after you register (if you want to). My matches were (in order of what matched my face the closest): Ryan Phillippe, Kimberly Williams, Meryl Streep, Gillian Anderson, Kristin Davis, Adam Brody, Christy Turlington, Josie Maran, Gwyneth Paltrow, & Katie Holmes. Whatever! (I used the photo I posted on my Oct. 2 entry.)
http://www.myheritage.com/FP/Company/tryFaceRecognition.php

From “Julie’s Gems”: February 2002

Okay, I admit it, I’m a bah humbug when it comes to Valentine’s Day. For those of us single people, it emphasizes the fact that we are alone. Of course, the other 364 days that are not dedicated to mushy squishy love come and go with a mere whisper in my ear that my only valentines are covered in fur (No, I’m not dating Sulley from “Monster’s Inc.” I’m referring to my dogs and cats.) So why do I find myself glaring at the Valentine’s Day gifts that line the shelves in the stores? I suppose this is where I could climb onto my soapbox and blame society for making us think we need to have a significant other to be worth something, but I digress. Instead, I will count my blessings not only for my furry family, but my human family as well. After all, it is my choice to be alone, and I must think of those who have not consciously made this decision. Those that are alone due to divorce, death, or other reasons we may not understand. If you know someone who fits this category, perhaps you can reach out to them and be their valentine. Of course I’m not referring to a romantic sense, but in friendship. Bake goodies, send a letter, invite this person to a movie, or whatever way you choose to make their day. What better way to celebrate a day for love! Okay, so maybe one better way would be to rebel and shoot Cupid with his own arrow, but for now, I think I’ll take my own advice and bake cookies and write Valentine’s Day cards.

Julie’s Gems Introduction

When I used to work for the police department, I published the department newsletter called “Beyond the Badge” from January 2002 until December 2003 (24 issues). I was told by many how much everyone loved my version of “the best newsletter” anyone had ever seen. I not only included department info such as promotions, awards, team projects, trainings, etc, but I included a humor column (on police life, of course) a recipe that men & women would enjoy, movie/book reviews, the chief’s column, and my own column. A lot of people loved it b/c I let them contribute to it, and I was told it boosted the morale of the department. I was even awarded the “employee of the month” for the entire city in August 2002. (This was in the days before I went from hero to zero.)
I wrote all that just to say that the next 20 blogs are going to be copies of the columns I wrote for the newsletter (I’m not including all 24 columns I wrote). B/c I wrote for a secular job, I could not make it spiritual, but they were all positive, and hopefully encouraging, messages. My column was called “Julie’s Gems,” so I will refer to the blogs from the newsletter as being from them. They won’t all be relevant to November 2006, but here they will be anyway! I may still write an “original” article from time to time before I get through the next 20 entries as the mood strikes.